"People are always shouting they want to create a better future. It's not true. The future is an apathetic void of no interest to anyone. The past is full of life, eager to irritate us, provoke and insult us, tempt us to destroy or repaint it. The only reason people want to be masters of the future is to change the past"
- Milan Kundera, The Book of Laughter and Forgetting
Losing the Plot, or the Narrative
My plan was to write a short story, a narrative of about 7000 words. Every now and then, on those inspiring moments, I would make a note to myself to remember certain situations. Later, as I was going through intense times and ideas abound, I began using my mobile phone as a notepad. I began collecting sentences. Every time anything grabbed my attention, I would jot it into my mobile phone and SMS it to myself for future reference, future sober reference. Not necessarily sober from intoxication, but sober from the moment. Every now and then, I would also attach a little photo (mobile phones do these things these days) with the message, either to remind myself of the specific reference or otherwise just as an 'emotional reference'.
After several months of accumulating short messages, I sat down and wrote them on a piece of Word ™ document on my computer. The task was simple, as many of the written pieces - those with attached photographs - were sent directly to my email inbox. I apologize for the somewhat tedious technical description, but it is a necessary preface for latter parts of this paper.